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2 years

I finally passed my Ippt. Took me close to 2 years to achieve that. lol

Should be seeing my CPL rank soon. Not that i really care haha. I'm gonna go in less than 2 months anyway. =D

Results:
SBJ: 218 (2nd try =x)
Chin-Up/Pull-Up: 6 (all over-graft. could do more. but why bother? lol)
Shuttle run: 9.99
Sit-up: 40
2.4: 11.52

Wooo~ huge improvement from my last ippt. last year. which was...

Results:
SBJ: 203
Chin-Up/Pull-Up: 2 (i cheated a little bit. the 10% and 90% thing i mentioned previously lol)
Shuttle run: 10.6 (i think?)
Sit-up: 40 (piece of cake la... since bmt lol)
2.4: 13.30

Anyway, now my current weight is 70.1Kg. Heh.

And i still haven go back to gym =X

Went to sheena's concert the other day. Heng was commenting that my weight loss programme is a success. but he thinks i look better when i was fat. =X could it be the hair?

Haha oh well~ ORD in 2 months!

Colorgenics (2)

Hmm been a... unhappy week for me. Had some problem that occured. And I don't know what to do about it.

So i decided to do the colorgenics again. The colors i picked this time were different.



Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image. You need for those people in positions that matter to recognise your potential and to acknowledge you.

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

You are feeling full of uncertainty and worrying over what you consider as missed opportunities. This is causing considerable stress and tension. You feel that there must be more to life than the constant pressures and anxieties - that surely life must hold far more opportunities than that which it has to date presented to you. You sincerely believe that there must be a simpler way to tap life's hidden recourses and should you be able to find that way - you could achieve your hearts desire. It's the not knowing 'how' that is affording you the constant worry. You are constantly probing and seeking - trying to ensure that at all times you are on your guard against missing any opportunity. 'Enough is enough'. You are anxious to avoid further setbacks. You are strenuously trying to make sure that you will not be overlooked and you badly need security.

There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophesy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.



I'm surprised again. Well I think the whole thing was trying to explain a really really really vague meaning of that i'm lost. Which i really am. So it did a good job loosing me. lol.

I'M UPSETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! =

Somebody help me =X

Problem being proper.

A while back, when abhilash and lock were stil in NS, abhi introduced to me the Book of Pook.

Its sort of like a book about self-love in general. About how to deal with relationship problems etc.

The book of pook encompasses 15 lessons in its starting chapters. What this 15 chapters are, i can't just describe them, you need to read it yourself.

But basically it tells the story of a typical nice guy who falls in love with a girl and how his 15 actions, crushed his hopes.

Those 15 lessons are like the golden rules of dating, if i may put it. But thats not what i'm driving at.

The Book of Pook, mentioned 3 type of guys that exists.

1. The Great Guy
2. The Bad Guy
3. The Nice Guy

This 3 types of guys attract different types of girls.

The great guy and the bad guy attract all the right ones, while the nice guy finishes last. He is often left with whatever's left and thus is settled on by the girls, or settled for a girl.

If one falls into the nice category, he should aspire to be the great guy as the great guy exudates charm and manliness. stuff that girls like. He will feel great about himself too.

But why do girls like bad guys? Well, for one, the bad guy has a certain charm about them as well. They are are exciting, thrilling and generally fun to be with. They will do a lot of things to disappoint the girl but yet she continues sticking to him. Its sad but its true.

Nice guys do finish last.

Nice guys are people who are contented with how they are at their current state, refusing to change, but are unhappy that they don't attract the girls like the other 2.

I sadly, fall into the nice guy category and in the 15 lessons, i probably would do exactly what the loser in the story did, thus hindering any opportunities for any relationship. They are like the nice guys instinct.

I shall explain in brief some of the 15 lessons that apply to me.
Friendship - Abandon all hope ye who enter!
The word 'Friend' is tabooed. Once you become a friend, there's no hope of rising up. Though some beg to differ. I don't know about that haha.

Lol read through the 15 lessons. Then realised that actually not all of them apply to me now. lol But in some ways they do but its too vague.

Well, i'm a nice guy, i certainly am rather happy with the way i turned out. I enjoy doing things i like. I'm easily satisfied. Life for me do not need a lot of excitement to keep me happy.

But why for girls, its things like this that deter them? They want spice, flavor, excitement! Fun! Spontaneous activity!

I'm a guy who definitely don't mind trying out new stuff. I'm spontaneous. And fun. But in my own way. I'm not the one who usually initiates a meet up with friends to go for a certain outing. I'm the one who's used to be the one to say ok to everything. Does that make me look like i have no life, no preference/mind of my own?

The reason why i'm ok with going out for whatever activity, is because i honestly don't mind doing them, even though my hobbies isn't one of them. Do i have a mind of my own? Of course i do. I will NOT do things i don't like. And i can say that there is not many. Usually this are stuff that goes against my principles like i mentioned previously.

Ok, take watching movies for example. To me, i have no specific genres of movies that i particularly like, though i admit i like watching movies with like inspiring themes. But i do watch the others. I may say that i like watching those movies, it does not mean that i hate stuff like horror or stupid shows. And when i say i don't have a particular liking for them, it does not mean i don't like them. It just means its in my 'ok-to-watch-list'.

I admit, i'm quite a pain to be understood. I don't talk in straight sentences. I mumble. My sentences are riddled with hidden meanings and/or sarcasm. I can't connect my thoughts and my speech really well. I'm not expressive. I'm an introvert. If someone actually tries to understand me, even in a little little way, i would be happy.

That is how easily satisfied i am. Drinking coffee in a coffee club and talk with friend at night certainly won't be boring for me, even if i'm not participating in the conversation. I'm more of a listener, than a whiner. I'm quiet because i enjoy peace. I like the moon compared to the sun. Why? The moon to me, gives me a calm and relaxing feeling, whenever i look at it. I'm not a dog or a werewolf or anything lol but i'm a night person. Not that i enjoying doing things or activities at night but rather, its the serenity at night that i'm attracted to.

I'm a weird person. I don't like to reveal myself too much to others because i feel that its like intruding my privacy. I practice self control in using vulgarities in front of girls because i think that their ears deserve more respect. Its not that i'm not treating you any different from anybody, but just that i feel that its not right haha. I can't explain.

I believe that spending money for food, outings, activities or whatever with friends, is not actually spending money on those stuff. I'm spending money to "buy" time from my friends and spending it with them. I believe time is more important than those material stuff.

I'm uncomfortable with touch. I dunno why. I'm just uncomfortable with it. But i think in recent years, i'm improving in this area of mine. Not that i go around touching people or anything lol. but when people touch me, be it intentionally or accidentally, i don't get annoyed as i would used to.

I'm fickled-minded. I think too much. I don't express what i think. I trouble myself and others with unnecessary pressure even though i do not want it. But honestly i'm a result-oriented person. If it leads to nowhere, i won't like doing it. So with pressure, it actually forces some work to be done. But then again, if this pressure causes people to be unhappy, i would hope that it goes away.

I don't open up to other people. I only open to people i can trust. Even to them, i would hold stuff back. I'm not the sort where if you ask me about sensitive stuff, i will tell you. I'm not like that. I would consider a lot of factors before teling you. The are not many people i trust with stuff like this. I hope i would be better in this area because i will only keep myself away from friends if i ever have any problems. That's unhealthy. =x

I promised myself not to mentioned about matters of the heart in this blog. But i guess when one is troubled/confused/frustrated, It's easier to think when its put down in words. This is not an entry about "A newbie's guide to Kelvin's Mind".

Goodnight =D

Oh and the book of pook link is below. Have a read. It's quite interesting.
http://forums.hardwarelogic.com/f9/book-pook-9057.html

Colorgenics

Name: Kelvin
Date: 2/24/2009
Colorgenics Number: 27503164

You are trying to prove to others that nothing can really affect you. You are pretending to be stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure and indeed even superior to any form of weakness. As a result, more often than not, you unfortunately act with undue harshness or severity by adopting an autocratic and self-willed attitude.

At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.

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its like so wtf. How did 8 colors tell so much that is so true o.o and i just picked them in the order in which appeals to me most. lol

Valentines...

Happy valentine's day to whoever is reading this!

I hope you had a wonderful time with your partner, and as for those who broke up/something wrong happened, well, i feel for you. Don't destroy the entire forest because of a solitary tree.

Me?

Well lets just leave it at i was date-less on that day. lol

So yea. I went out on valentines day to pay for IDP deposit as i've mentioned previously. Then i decided to go takashimaya to look for something. Along the way, i met many couples. Lovey-dovey and all.

Some girls were carrying huge bouquets of flowers with their boyfriend or husband by their side while some girls were alone and yet were holding a single stalk of rose or something. I was wondering why they were doing that until i saw an indian fella outside wisma giving those roses to those single women outside haha.

So yea, as i was walking, i figured out a theory on why girls like to flaunt that they recieved flowers on that special day!

1. Their boyfriend is ugly. The flower distracts the passerbys from looking at the boyfriend.
2. She is ugly. It distracts passerbys from her bloody face.

Haha!

Those truly pretty and handsome couples don't bring along any flowers because they have no need to! They just bathe in their natural "i'm very good looking! Eat that!" aura that exudates from their dainty bodies and people would be in awe and make way for that wonderous duo.

Well, similarly for the really ugly pairs, they probably have given up on trying to distract people from their looks and thus decided to scare people off with their looks and have their paths cleared! What a good way of crowd control!

Flowers to me aren't just distracting tools to be used on valentine's.

They are rather symbolic of valentine's. Where a guy or a girl, expresses his/her love for the other, in which case, its usually the guy who gives the flowers. Of course, they are people who think that its customary to give flowers to girls on valentine's even if they are not romantically attracted to her and in some situations, it can be both good and bad.

Good because it makes her happy. I guess its a natural hormonal or whatever reaction that girls have when they recieve flowers.

Bad because she might overthink it. Or she hates flowers =X

Would you be happy if someone gives you, a beautiful bouquet of 99 crimson red roses, a box of 12 heart-shaped godiva chocolate in a brilliant purple heart-shaped casing and a small pink heart-shaped pendant/necklace from tiffany and co. and a cute as hell teddy bear that says "i love you" as your valentine's gift?

Well i wouldn't do that to the girl i like.

No doubt chocolates, flowers, jewellery and stuff toys are symbolic of valentine's, i still think its so cliche. Everybody is doing that because its "safe"

Then again, if the girl like them, i have nothing to say haha.

I would go for a more practical gift. Something which they can use. Something like a pen =D

Why a pen? Its practical. It can be elegant, depending on what pen you chose. It is professional. Something people don't normally recieve on valentine's day. That's why its so special because it showed that you've actually put thought into what gift you gave and not just settled for the cliche items.

Who disagrees with me?

On other matters, i promised myself not to write stuff concerning my emotions in the blog as it showed the inmaturity in my writing as i have done so before in my ancient blogs. Almost did. But i took it down in 10mins. Hope nobody saw it. =X

Well anyway, i think things concerning emotions, are not meant for public display. And when i mean emotions, i refer them to things concerning you being sad about being rejected by a girl and all. Its okay to write it down somewhere to pen down your thoughts and vent your frustration. But its not ok to post it on your blog. I for one, cannot take you seriously if your entire blog is full of contradicting emotions which is usually the case. Thats why i prefer not to show this "weakness". If you want to know, ask me. I will tell you. As much as i think you are allowed to know.



My place in there is fixed. It will never change. Won't it?

Retard

Went to IDP to pay my deposit today and then went to town to look for something. Unfortunately it was out of stock. Oh well.

Then i took the MRT home.

Its kind of rare nowadays that i take the MRT, especially after i got my license and all. haha but then luckily for me i found a seat from toa payoh all the way to woodlands. So still alright for my aching feet.

Yea, so i was staring in front of me in the mrt. No there wasn't any pretty girl or what but i was deep in thought.
Just recollecting on like how i used to see some kid walk up and down from 1 end to another end of the train and then he will keep doing that till he reaches his stop.

Back in the mind of everybody, they will probably be thinking," this kid must have problems; Sort one!; Must be a retard."

I am guilty of that too. Haha i used to think they were quite annoying. Even when the train in crowded, the bugger would be trying to zig zag his way through here and there, accidentally knocking someone's feet or a tramp thats in the way.

Well what i failed to realise was that i used to be THAT retard!

Lol! I remember when i was really really really young, Like really really really really young. I had tuition class in Jurong east. So i would take mrt from marsiling to jurong east. then boring ma. so walk up and down lor lol.

Thinking back made me grin like an idiot. Then the auntie beside me suddenly move away 1 seat away. She must have thought i was sort one .... suddenly smile like that while staring infront =X

I'm not saying i'm a retard. at least i did it i because i was truly bored. The rest are retarded and god knows why they did it.