Colorgenics

Name: Kelvin
Date: 2/24/2009
Colorgenics Number: 27503164

You are trying to prove to others that nothing can really affect you. You are pretending to be stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure and indeed even superior to any form of weakness. As a result, more often than not, you unfortunately act with undue harshness or severity by adopting an autocratic and self-willed attitude.

At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.

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its like so wtf. How did 8 colors tell so much that is so true o.o and i just picked them in the order in which appeals to me most. lol

Valentines...

Happy valentine's day to whoever is reading this!

I hope you had a wonderful time with your partner, and as for those who broke up/something wrong happened, well, i feel for you. Don't destroy the entire forest because of a solitary tree.

Me?

Well lets just leave it at i was date-less on that day. lol

So yea. I went out on valentines day to pay for IDP deposit as i've mentioned previously. Then i decided to go takashimaya to look for something. Along the way, i met many couples. Lovey-dovey and all.

Some girls were carrying huge bouquets of flowers with their boyfriend or husband by their side while some girls were alone and yet were holding a single stalk of rose or something. I was wondering why they were doing that until i saw an indian fella outside wisma giving those roses to those single women outside haha.

So yea, as i was walking, i figured out a theory on why girls like to flaunt that they recieved flowers on that special day!

1. Their boyfriend is ugly. The flower distracts the passerbys from looking at the boyfriend.
2. She is ugly. It distracts passerbys from her bloody face.

Haha!

Those truly pretty and handsome couples don't bring along any flowers because they have no need to! They just bathe in their natural "i'm very good looking! Eat that!" aura that exudates from their dainty bodies and people would be in awe and make way for that wonderous duo.

Well, similarly for the really ugly pairs, they probably have given up on trying to distract people from their looks and thus decided to scare people off with their looks and have their paths cleared! What a good way of crowd control!

Flowers to me aren't just distracting tools to be used on valentine's.

They are rather symbolic of valentine's. Where a guy or a girl, expresses his/her love for the other, in which case, its usually the guy who gives the flowers. Of course, they are people who think that its customary to give flowers to girls on valentine's even if they are not romantically attracted to her and in some situations, it can be both good and bad.

Good because it makes her happy. I guess its a natural hormonal or whatever reaction that girls have when they recieve flowers.

Bad because she might overthink it. Or she hates flowers =X

Would you be happy if someone gives you, a beautiful bouquet of 99 crimson red roses, a box of 12 heart-shaped godiva chocolate in a brilliant purple heart-shaped casing and a small pink heart-shaped pendant/necklace from tiffany and co. and a cute as hell teddy bear that says "i love you" as your valentine's gift?

Well i wouldn't do that to the girl i like.

No doubt chocolates, flowers, jewellery and stuff toys are symbolic of valentine's, i still think its so cliche. Everybody is doing that because its "safe"

Then again, if the girl like them, i have nothing to say haha.

I would go for a more practical gift. Something which they can use. Something like a pen =D

Why a pen? Its practical. It can be elegant, depending on what pen you chose. It is professional. Something people don't normally recieve on valentine's day. That's why its so special because it showed that you've actually put thought into what gift you gave and not just settled for the cliche items.

Who disagrees with me?

On other matters, i promised myself not to write stuff concerning my emotions in the blog as it showed the inmaturity in my writing as i have done so before in my ancient blogs. Almost did. But i took it down in 10mins. Hope nobody saw it. =X

Well anyway, i think things concerning emotions, are not meant for public display. And when i mean emotions, i refer them to things concerning you being sad about being rejected by a girl and all. Its okay to write it down somewhere to pen down your thoughts and vent your frustration. But its not ok to post it on your blog. I for one, cannot take you seriously if your entire blog is full of contradicting emotions which is usually the case. Thats why i prefer not to show this "weakness". If you want to know, ask me. I will tell you. As much as i think you are allowed to know.



My place in there is fixed. It will never change. Won't it?

Retard

Went to IDP to pay my deposit today and then went to town to look for something. Unfortunately it was out of stock. Oh well.

Then i took the MRT home.

Its kind of rare nowadays that i take the MRT, especially after i got my license and all. haha but then luckily for me i found a seat from toa payoh all the way to woodlands. So still alright for my aching feet.

Yea, so i was staring in front of me in the mrt. No there wasn't any pretty girl or what but i was deep in thought.
Just recollecting on like how i used to see some kid walk up and down from 1 end to another end of the train and then he will keep doing that till he reaches his stop.

Back in the mind of everybody, they will probably be thinking," this kid must have problems; Sort one!; Must be a retard."

I am guilty of that too. Haha i used to think they were quite annoying. Even when the train in crowded, the bugger would be trying to zig zag his way through here and there, accidentally knocking someone's feet or a tramp thats in the way.

Well what i failed to realise was that i used to be THAT retard!

Lol! I remember when i was really really really young, Like really really really really young. I had tuition class in Jurong east. So i would take mrt from marsiling to jurong east. then boring ma. so walk up and down lor lol.

Thinking back made me grin like an idiot. Then the auntie beside me suddenly move away 1 seat away. She must have thought i was sort one .... suddenly smile like that while staring infront =X

I'm not saying i'm a retard. at least i did it i because i was truly bored. The rest are retarded and god knows why they did it.

Issue

Alright.
Right now i'm contemplating should i or should i not munch down the pineapple tarts that SJ made.
Just had my dinner so its kinda sinful if i continue to eat. But then if i don't touch it now, i will never touch it cos i have a short term memory in terms of eating snacks.

Well in the past i wouldn't cos i was such a glutton. But then when i place the tarts/cookies/chocolates etc. into the freezer or somewhere in the kitchen. the next day when i return the food will be gone or half gone. My brother would have got to them first before me.

So there is this issue of me not being appreciative of whatever people make or give me. Well they wouldn't find out unless i told them; Its not like they drop over my house everytime and ask,"Hey what happened to the box of cookies i gave you this morning? Was it nice?"

Well if that really happened, i would have told them the "truth". Either i never tried it cos my brother finished it up or it was fantastic! I'm not so mean to tell them that it tasted like vomit or i had better, stuff like that. Even though sometimes it may be the case =X

See, when people give you presents or gifts, self-made food in particular, you have to factor in the amount of money, time and effort they put in to produce that supposed-to-be wonderful creation. You have to question about the thought as well; Is it just some spare that can't be put into the beautiful tupperware/containers or did they really make it just for you. And everybody else he/she wanted to make it for.

Then again, if it was me, i wouldn't be so nice to be the latter. If you happen to experience me giving you something to eat out of the blue, its usually 1. Its something worth trying and i want you to eat a bit if not all. 2. my mum ask me to bring to you to "clear stock".

Firstly i don't make cookies/tarts/cakes or whatever-not. i don't cook also though i think if i do it wouldn't taste that bad...
So i sorta have this soft spot for people who made and gave me cookies/tarts/etc. Less chef friends, mum, brother and boys. Firstly, if chef friends make stuff for me, its usually some new reciepe they are trying or they just mixed something up and give it to us to help him clear the left over, or like 80% of the time, they would be trying to sell me whatever they made. So beware if your chef friends do it for you!

Secondly for my mum and brother, every year they would embark on a pineapple tart and cookie making routine and my house will be flooded with them. Its not that its not nice, but i don't eat them. I will touch on that later.

Thirdly, boys making cookies and tarts and giving them to me is just plain weird and gay. Hell no. Oh for the record, none so far =X

So yea, if its girls haha i feel obligated to finish the food they gave me. Can't blame girls. It like 70% of the girls i know like to bake. And i'm often treated as the waste collector, scooping up all the treats.

But please. Please. PLEASE. Do not assume that all guys like pineapple tarts and cookies. More importantly, do NOT assume I = ALL GUYS.

I for one, don't like to eat pineapple tarts. Its too dry for my taste. I don't like cookies other than famous amos. SO don't make or give to me unless you feel that its comparable to famous amos. I don't like chocolate coated cereals baked with dunno-what-thing-shaped-like-a-tart. Just weird and i don't like it.

So, if you think you can buy my heart by making me all these "goodies" and think i would treat you nicer and not say so much bad things about you... you can continue thinking and dreaming then. I'm not so easily bought over. Unless you give me things that actually catch my eye that is. haha.

So yea, back to SJ tarts. Eat it? Don't Eat it? I have to eat it. The stock from my brother and mum still there. And my brother won't touch it. And i have to be appreciative. So ya. Munching now!

Hope it doesn't make me gain weight =X

Reasons...

Ok, just some quick updates. Same as the previous entries. I'm still eating like that. But i'm not going to gym. Damn.

Thankfully though, RT is back and at least i'm exercising. Of course, i always believe if you go gym and just play around with the machines, it won't help you lose weight or pass ippt. So i always ensure that even if i'm restricted in terms of machines or equipments, i will supplement by being more objective.

But there's only so much i could do. There isn't any bar bell in the gym. No free weights greater than 5kg. Sigh.

On a plus note, i managed to pull a 6 ... or maybe close to 6 haha. I realise something. On some bars i can pull til 5/6. Some i can only manage 3. Its always 3. Not more. i wonder why. Is it a mental thing?

So yea today had a RT session. Did bench press with the machine, 40kg. I could manage. But i guess its mean a long time since i went to the gym so kinda need some warm up.

Did some other random stuff as well. Took a run at the new treadmill.

Set at 11.5km/hr, i lasted for 10mins at that speed. even though i think i could have gone faster sometimes. But i don't think that speed can make me pass ippt. considering 11.5km/hr for 10mins... thats like... 1.916 km in 10mins. i wonder if its possible to finish the next 0.484km in 2min 20s haha.

People would say," With determination you can!" Screw determination.

At the 9th minute i was just praying for the time to speed up so i can get off the treadmill. haha i think i need to run more.

Oh yea, talking about running. I want to join addidas sundown in may. I missed the early bird but its still $10 cheaper to register now anyway. Saturday see how haha.

Ok my blog title is titled reasons. Why? well recently i have been questioned why i have certain thoughts towards certain things. All of them have a certain reason.

Lets start with my principles.

I used to advocate 3 principles; No Drinking, No Smoking, No Gambling

Why? well its very easy to say in chinese haha.

Why no drinking? I just don't like beer. Or wine. Or spirits. Or whatever. I don't see the reason why to drink something to quench your thirst when in actual fact its dehydrating your body. Its like total contradiction. And it harms the liver. So No drinking. And don't be stupid. When i meant drinking, i meant drinking alcohol and alcohol related beverages. Its not H2O you freaking-think-you-are-smart-and-want-to-play-with-words-dumb-ass-!$#^&!.

Why no smoking? Obvious isn't it?

Why no gambling? Ok this i have to explain myself. Even though lately i seemed to be associated with being crazy about playing mahjong, i in fact disapprove of gambling. I'm not talking about buying toto and 4d 3 times a week for the 3 different draw dates. I'm talking about spending $1000 in total on toto and 4d a month. It is that extreme end that i disapprove. Mahjong? Well lets just say i'm trying to stick to my principle even though i admit i strayed. i blame it on anna and huiting. for asking me to play mahjong on anna's birthday. >.>
I myself don't buy toto or 4d. I don't bet on soccer. I don't play mahjong... anymore. I don't play blackjack,poker or any other casino related card games. Dice nope. Horse racing nope. It started with a chalet when i was denied sleep over a complicated mahjong camp which i wasn't playing. But because of them i couldn't sleep and bath. So from then on i swore not to gamble. As well as influence from my dad, who also dislike gambling addicts. Seeing the people in camp losing money in soccer betting and all makes me want to save money more haha.

OK with the 3 done, lets move on.

Why do i don't like clubbing? I explained before and i shall explain it again. I Simply do not like clubbing. I do not like girls who club. why? They lack the certain mental maturity that i seek.

Why i disapprove whoring? Don't be stupid. If you are, stop reading this.

There are many other things i do and don't do. Can't remember them all. But if i remember anything i will put them in the subsequent entries.

Kwan has been entertaining. Thanks for being the serious clown that you are. =) And i don't play mahjong anymore.

Applied for NTU, NUS and SMU. Hope i get at least an interview. Prays hard.

Er what else...

I can't make the payment for deposit for UQ cos apparantly IDP is closed on every 1st saturday of the month. So i guess its postponed to next week.

Oh my army friends bought me a crumpler bag! haha. Its hee-goer. and honestly its fugly. The mental picture in my mind doesn't connect to JY, who was the one who bought it. He said it was olive green. Well it look more like grass green haha. So i'm gonna exchange it on saturday at raffles place. Gonna change to ... i forgot the name. starts with P .... or packet or something. haha. might need to top up.

Deloitte and touche! Grats SJ!

Women don't really say clever things...

Its true!

Haha i heard this on the radio.

Women don't really say clever things when they open up their mouth to speak.

However there's a clear indication when she is about to say something really clever...

She will start the sentence with," A man once told me...."

Haha! Happy Chinese New Year people!